for forever

i wanna life with u happily not just here, my dear…

i wanna do everything together forever

our real home is at the future

not now, on the earth only

so..let’s do the best for our next life from now

Bismillahhirrahmannirrahim…

Insya Allah…

ugly

Hem… it was so bad, it’s making u ugly…

Really…  I saw it clearly when u spoke straight to someone coldly, without smiling or being cheer

U looked so fraud of your position which u hv right now, Guy…

Ah, I begin to think for myself…

I do not want do like that…

please… be patient, be patient and be patient

the Complainer

Every where and every time, there are many persons dissappointed

complain and complain again…about something big or just cause a little bit one.

we hear the  gripping or we just see the angry face without saying anything

Huh!

Lately, I can laugh at myself…more over when someone does like that in front of  me exactly

ah…what for? and why?

It could be just need an attantion from someone else? or…?

we should think…why we do not do like what we need from another one?

One day in my (maybe also in your ) life

It just for made me convince what the going on in yours

But I really did not expect as too far as like that

That made me could not be breath for several minutes

Likely  in the dreaming…

Was  it the real or just a playing my daydream, as usual?

It made us like going to the green and cold mountain

There was a lovely rose garden, red … to be redden

So made us tired to smell that, but … I like that made us exited

 Ah….the time of ours  was too short

In fact, we wanted set back our time which we had

We wanted do the story from the beginning.

We felt our feet so hard to step, really…

The eyes never lie…

our way life

There was a tear dropped at my lap

Thanks….so many thanks…ya, Allah…

I had seen of my long way from the fast, yesterday, now and maybe tomorrow (it maybe)

I wish my life will be clearer, lightly and walk on the right manner

In fact, my happiness comes from my heart and mind atmosphere, it’s not from anyone else, despite mere from our soul mate.

In my mind, I keep tightly that thinking positively is the right choice for every minute

We could share our tasks, from the easiest or simply to the complicated one

We realize that we could not do what our God’s does

So… Why should we spend our time, energy and everything for trying to make our life as well/good/nice as we want by daydream only? It would be wasting time!

Our primary task in the world is just for serving our God, become a nice/useful person for another and endeavor to gain our aspirations.

It should be done until our time is over.

And we have to belief if our God will fulfill our living need without we know/realize from which way it would come facing us.

Pls, believe it, if the best person only for the best person and the worst only for the worst.

Ofcz, we wanna be a best not worst one…could not deny!

That is why, from now…let’s we do what should to do from our God.

I wish we will meet and stay at the same place in the world and afterworld later…ofcz by our God bless and wish…

Ah, I m sure, we will be a great and luck person

May God Bless Us!

Ah, a nice trip!

 

I passed at Botanical Garden precisely.

When? Ah, yesterday!

 

My dear,

I ‘d love to tell you that our step still there, really!

You could guess it, I looked the path was branched to the right and left way.

O… even to up and down of where we stayed and sat down

The distance, it seems still as far as we walked away, and it looks like as long as we talked about ours

 

But, oh, no… my frightening came immediately!

Do you remember about a big tree with strange fragrant which grows steady under the red bridge. It was a zombie home? Hi….horror!

 

But, I could smile for a while.

When our lunch got accidently exchanged

In fact, mine was salad fried rice and your was kind of salt fish

Oh, how could you did that to me…

 

Oh, yeah…

Honestly, we almost did not go there, because the train so long picked us up.

Yup, we went there by train and followed by becak

Oh… no… at that time, si abang drove his vehicle very hard, maybe weight of us too heavy for him. Ha…, we felt not convenient enough about that, it made we felt that the gate was reached, but.. ups! Still far away, ha…we had got up before our destination.

Finally, we made the real action, we should get an angkot to find there quicly.

 

Oke, let think about what we did there, now.

Hem… only talking, having lunch, drinking, but we found also mie kangkung, cingcau and fruits. That was all. Not forget we had taken pray at behind that cafeteria.

 

The important moment for me was we had got the lake there, at the end of our trip garden.

Ah, the water so dirty, there were many rubbish

But I was happy sitting at one side with you there

We took some pictures.

You will see one of those

Here it is!

 

 

 

at the end of one night

I remember …

when the end of one night was coming,

early morning passed by

 

I opened the door and window widely

the fresh air went inside of my space, facing me tenderly and smoothly

my body became cool, but the mind and heart went to be warmer than before

 

I looked to the outside

it still so dark and silent, there!

aha! but I had a convinced about the way to make it bright and clear as I wish

 

by the time, yes! it would be change!

followed by my honest, sincere, truth, and sweet love, I believe… I could get it, surely!

it ll be… one day,  sooner or later,

although not here, ah! might be at an other place

 

unbelievably,

at that time I was looking at my future so straight and steady

there was no hesitating nor pretending

coz I accepted everything what I were suppose to do and ask

I only begged what be needed  for my living, sufficiently.

 

o..o.. a nice tone was waving on me

I heard a part of the song’s lyric quite clearly at my ears:

“dirimu nuansa.. nuansa ilham…pancaran diri tiada bertepi..”

“ki…ni, terasa sungguh, semakin engkau jauh, semakin terasa dekat…..

a….kan ku… kembangkan kasih yang… kau tanam di dalam hatiku..

 

ah! it made me feel that staying next to u more comfortable.

thank you!

a hole

There is a hole!

 

I had known about that hole truthfully

Very dark, quite, cool and made me felt lonely

And I really had known how to entrance that

Especially, when something happen without being tough first

 

Ah… surprisingly,  no rare I went there unconsciously

Ha…., suddenly I have been there

And I would cry to beg someone for helping me tenderly

Coz I never know about how to go out from that

 

I always confuse if I had been there

So, I never  wanna  go there, I swear!

Please… believe me! In that place I couldn’t see anything,

 

But…  

ups!

Lately  I could enjoy be there

Ha…

Why?

Hem… coz I could string up my imagination there

Yup, a wild imagination…

Something like a sweet, nice, and lovely

 

Oh.. no!

What happen with me?

Bbbbrrrr…

What the reason was?

Sssstttt…. There was a shadow like rainbow!

Huh!

It ‘s so colorful and beautiful, ah!

Even, sometime it  looked like sunset time, the vew so romantic?!

oh, dear… it hd got something seriously!

Ccckk..

 

 

 

 

 

no one above u

No need to articulate anymore

No need to convince each other anymore

No need to confess clearly anymore

No need to oversee anytime anymore

 

Everything has run well on the right track

No doubt if we had the same dreaming

Dreaming about freely

Freely like butterfly flying on the sky that playing in the flower garden

Freely like lion walking in the jungle gamely

Freely like fish swimming under the see

 

Darling…. you’re really my wishing

You stay here, at my deep heart firmly

You are my sweet dream, all the time

No one above you

 

We could go to everywhere in every time

But only your shadow keeps in my eyes follow me

My singings are only for you

My whispers are all for and about you

 

My love…, please… missing me all the time

the first day

 

Today is the first day of 2009

Many things happened around us, and many things we had had

Alhamdulillah we could do all of ours smoothly

Everything almost done well although no perfect enough

 

Today is the first day of 2009

A lot of programs we have had to full fill this year

Many wishes we have, and could get those all hopefully

Everything which are sweet, nice, beautiful even spectacular would happen around us  

 

Today is the first day of 2009

The first step we have from this time

We wish the God bless us every time and every where

Insya Allah…. our goal would be reached as well as we dreamt